i love the rush.

I can’t control my feelings for someone. But honestly, I know it’s so crazy to think what I’m thinking about you, but I like it. I like y o u. No one else. It’s just too bad I don’t have any experience with guys like all my friends. I wish it were easy. I wish you’d like me back… Because that’d be cool.

I don’t really have a place to vent to right now so I’m putting my thoughts here. I’m nice to everyone most the time. I honestly haven’t ever meaningfully started drama, but when I try to be the mediator or the nicer person, it always backfires on me. I’m just so sick of it. I want to be remembered as the girl who always sought out to be the nice one, who everyone could turn to, but I guess it’s not possible. I cry over things that aren’t my fault. People get angry at me for caring too much. What I think would make everyone calm down? L O V E. just love could change so much. & not thinking so much about how others see you! Who cares? Be yourself. You’re beautiful. Alls I hope is that someone notices I’m trying, because then maybe I can change the world, maybe even a little.